FTFY because sitting now and listening to how one of the levayos went down today and this is how i feel.
And another two close people that were rushed to the hospital. I'm almost starting to understand how people at the holocaust became immune to family members being killed or shipped off. We are used to the fact that if someone dies the whole community cries along. But now its a new whatsapp message every hour about another person dying.
I worry about this a lot. I wish I was more optimistic that this was not only the beginning. Someone in my BIL's family passed away, the wasn't much of a levaya, and many family members couldn't go because they are at risk and/or restricted. As someone who has sat shiva for both parents, I understand the therapeutic value of Shiva. While, no doubt, these people can still sit shiva, and will get phone calls and facetimes, etc. I honestly don't think it's the same.
My two biggest hopes are that:
a) We don't become desensitized to the loss of life.
b) Those who are morning the loss of a loved one (or, R"L ones) should be able to have nechama and closure.
