I browse through the threads on this forum occasionally, but generally refrain from commenting. After reading 30 plus pages, I couldn't resist sharing my personal sentiments.
@Chevron: I've read through your posts, and although I have difficulty understanding your perspective, I realize that it's been molded by the unfortunate childhood you've experienced. It bothers me that because of the circumstances that have negatively influenced you, you refuse to give yourself a chance to attain the ultimate happiness. At the risk of sounding trite, I'll repeat the old proverb, "If there's no pain, there's no gain." Marriage and child raising are awesome responsibilities that come with hardship, yet many people realize that the most fulfilling relationship one can have is with a spouse, and that most children eventually bring nachas and are the living legacy one leaves over after their time on this world has expired. I know individuals who have grown up in dysfunctional homes and witnessed an abusive relationship, and today are in wonderful marriage. Many divorcees will admit that despite all they've gone through, they feel fortunate that they've given birth to children who make life worth living. With all this rambling, the point I 'm trying to make is that those with a healthy perspective view marriage and children as worthwhile investments that come at the expense of toil, pain, and sacrifice.
I hope and pray that one day soon you'll meet the right one who will change your perspective, and that together you'll discover the joys that will come after you will overcome your fears and give yourself another chance.
