Faking, mainly because I'm embarrassed to change. College, I don't consider financial success as the primary element of "making it". If anything I'd consider trade school. Much less debt and years required. Although I never thought about the idea that I can meet a Jewish girl in college. For that it's actually a pretty good idea.
You really need to get out more... Cant you get an uber on Friday nights to the city? or is that a deorysa? LOL
Seriously speaking, you really just need to get on top of your issues. No disrespect at all, but you are not at all learned enough to be a good apikores. You are trying for the "intellectual apikores" approach, but it really doesn't fit for someone with a basic yeshiva high-school education. - You need to at least know shas bavli well if you are going to decide you "disagree". Or at the very minimum have a serious kefiradik history degree. Together with some philosophy...
, why not just become an atheist or similar.
Because you are not an intellectual apikores, it doesn't suit you, you dont have arguments for any of these..