The question is which Ratzon is going on. I mean, since when are we meant to "familiarize yourself with Machloikesim of Gedoilei Oilam for 100's of years" like we have some sort of Dea here? Just to slam people over the head with my personal interpretation of what the Zohar means? The order of the "Farher" after 120 has Ma'aseh Merkavah last for a reason. And even the Amoraim who went into Pardes weren't ready for certain things there even on their level. Jumping into Kabbala "Just because the Yeshivos say not to" is at best just an invitation to misunderstanding what you read. (Not even gonna call it learning) I don't know you or where you're holding in Torah, but your tone doesn't sit right by me.
Here we go again, I'm guessing another bachur who never learned any of the seforim and still thinks that learning about the sefiros is being יורד למרכבה...you can learn kabbalah only for the rest of your life and you won't get anywhere close to being יורד למרכבה...I doubt having a basic idea of kabbalistic concepts is what the shach is referring too, so I'm not allowed to learn רמב"ן on chumash until after I'm 40 either?
All of tfilah is completely based on the sefiros...
If you learn the history of kabbalah you'll know that kabbalah has gone through many stages in it's development, from Geonim to rishoshim, chasidei Ashkenaz, abulafia, tzfas, shabsai tzvi ימ"ש, Italian mekubalim, etc...so you always have to take it in context, The ש"ך was 5 years older then shabsai tzvi, and when he's advising reluctance of learning kabbalah he's most likely referring to תורת הארי..but even if not, the atmosphere at that time was what resulted in a terrible tragedy, it wasn't meant to prevent people 400 years later from having any idea of what sefiros are and what names of hashem represent...
Besides it's been accepted ever since the 1800's that this no longer applies from the year תר'
Nobody who took themselves seriously waited till they were 40 to start learning kabbalah, in fact can you name me someone in the last 500 years who wrote something on kabbalah that didn't start learning it until they were 40?
For that 1 shach, I can show you 10 more that explicitly argue on him..
I promise you, no harm will come from you learning פרדס רימונים and תומר דבורה.
Let's debunk this phobia!