I appreciate your sincerity :-)
To tell the truth: you know, there are some people who rarely sin... they are like a beautiful white sheet. So, every rare sin of theirs makes this big ugly stain. Naturally, they try to wash out the stain. And, I dont know for sure, but I imagine its an intense process. Then theres the people like me who are full full full of sins. Our sheet is almost entirely black. The process it would take to make the sheet white again... Would give me a nervous break down just thinking about it. So, what we do, is look at our sheet just to see if we can still see even a tiny white spot. You know, just a little something in us that is still aligned with Gds wish for us. When e find it... All there is is joy, gladnedd, and delight. These are the people at Yehudah Greens slichos.
After reading all of your posts, the ideas you express and the way you have replied, i noticed that you either don't understand where sky and 1+1 are coming from, or you don't care to address them directly.
Before addressing the inherent flaws in your weltanschauung i would like to explain something to you.
It seems that those arguing with you (and myself) believe that a jew cannot decide what is the proper path to serving G-d based on our own feeling whims or even rock solid logic.
We choose to accept the guidance of our mesorah and rebbeim because we are acutely aware of our lack of true understanding. There is no room to discuss risk taking in this ideology (in the same way you wouldn't advise anyone to take a risk that you couldn't afford the consequences of a mistake). Nor is it appropriate to resort to name calling like "close minded" etc. as this is a chosen belief that that is made consciously and intelligently.
If you agree with this premise than tell us your source. If you don't and/or have no source then we view your points as baseless. Although it is still apropos nonetheless to
ask why your ideas are INCORRECT.
In regard to your statements about Rosh HaShana, a few points:
1) you have effectively done away with the entire point of rosh hashana, R'H is about responsibility and the ramifications of our actions, hence the name Yom HaDin (not Yom Harachamim) and the term yomim NORAIM. While the time for Vidui is after R"H and R"H is certainly a joyous YOM TOV but to remove the trepidation is antithetical to it's essence (Gila V'Raada).
2) G-d has created us imperfect but he has placed no
imperative for sin within us, we have made bad choices and we therefor are deserving of punishment. I understand that it is
exciting to view R'H as a fantastically happy day with no inherent danger, but it is also exciting to pretend you are a pirate!
People who lose their ability to cope with tremendous difficulties and mental pressures often build an alternative reality that is easier to swallow. Your outlook is rather reminiscent of that. You seem to feel that if your sheet is too black you cannot really do teshuva so instead of even trying, let's pretend that "G-d doesn't really care! All he really wants is your love!"
Perhaps I can help you here, Even the greatest sinner (who's sheet is much blacker than yours) can achieve COMPLETE teshuva on these days. He must however follow the directions we have been given by the Rambam, Rabeinu Yona and others, he cannot make up his own. G-d wants to grant us complete forgiveness, but according to many sources will only do so if and when we recognize the depth of the errors of our ways and that we accept the din upon ourselves on R'H (yaaros devash, michtam m'eliyahu, afikai yam and many many many more). Certainly we cannot do so without a modicom of trepidation and fear.
3)in addition we are not talking about R'H, we are talking about slichos, how can you look at ANY of the words of slichos and possibly conclude that it is not all about teshuvah and inculcating a true regret within your heart!?
4) And finally, Let us presume that the idea of malchiyus is to A)realize how great G-d is, then B)to recognize how miniscule and flawed you are, and then C) to be filled with incredible love and happiness that G-d wants a relationship with YOU (VeAvisa Tehilla Mekrushai Chomer). But after that can any thinking person deny the logical follow-up of D) incredible regret at completely ignoring and grievously unforgivably sinning against your beloved the entire past year!? Certainly in the midst of your religious extasy you should be feeling terribly sad as well and deciding to never do that ever again!
Unless of course.... you have decided that G-d doesn't care that you can continue to treat G-d however you please and He will continue to love you in the very same fashion with no consequences... then you are espousing the idea that G-d is a "vatran" and we know that "kol haomer Hakadosh Boruch Vatran, YeVatru Chayav" (perhaps not an absolutely precise quote) and certainly on the day that life is apportioned we shouldn't call G-d a vatran!
