I can see the desire and need to explore and challenge ones Identity etc
I always felt scared and embraced when they'd administer anesthesia and actually always requested to be knocked out first, I had a real panic attack once on the operating table before they administered.
As my friend Daniel quotes Davie Crockett "he who is destined to die by hanging, will not drown" I'm deathly scared of flying which is irrational.
I drank to handle reality and existence, I cut down on my drinking to better manage my cognitive function.
It's not necessarily a solution, I'm always beset by questions of existence, purpose, being, clashes of time management, reality etc
I worry non stop, I don't worry, I worry that I'm not worried haha
But I'd never want any out of body drugs.. that's just me.. I stopped post op opioids back in 2009? Recognized how crazy the heroin based stuff was.
Not comparing the 2, I just figure if there are any answers, I'll find them when I die.. and if there are no answers, what have I got to gain..